Exciting stuff :D

Its been awhile!! =) annnd it will probably be awhile again before I'll have time to post....
I leave next wednesday for Florida to spend the weekend working with CCI..
THEN..
I'll be home for 4 days and then i'll leave for Tenn. for a week at camp with some really good friends...
ANNNND THENNN!! :)
i'll be home less then 24 hours and i'll fly out to..... HAWAII to spend 5ish weeks working at a camp!! this has been a dream for sometime and its finally coming true.. i couldn't be more excited!!! =) God is GOOD!!! ;) Pray for me!

My favorite times.

My most favorite times, are times spent with cousins. This past weekend was pretty amaazing. Cousins..aunts..uncles..grandpa. its amaazing. our family is one-of-a-kind-amazing!! Its hard to imagine any other family as close as ours. What other family goes and eats lunch in an empty house. or has so many memories.. we could write a book. :)

This past weekend, Jackson, Eric and I walked up the "the park" for the very last time.. i was flooded with memories, of years gone by.. Brian carrying a ladder there so he could climb up and ring the bell.. (oh my!) attacking Eric on the slide. Flying kites.. our family baseball games.. Family football in pop's front yard.. Walking up the "Graces" school.. walking the track. Playing House on the side porch. fighting over the big wheel toy. HOURS of Dirty Uno.. food fight in the living room. (Brian and Eric started it!)  Aunt Sarah's pancake house!, sledding on the hill. Sitting around the living room singing Christmas songs. Christmas at the beach. I could go on.. but you get the idea.. my family is cooler then your family :) and i love them all bunches!!! I'm beyond thankful for every single cousin/aunt/uncle grandparent. Time spent with them feels right.. it should happen more. i loved this weekend.. and i cannot wait till the next time we are all together again!! =)

thoughts.

You know what my problem is?
I get attached, fast. And once I'm attached to someone, I do everything I can to please them and make them happy. It's never been about what I want, it's always everyone's needs before my own. I give out too many chances to people, who quite frankly, do not deserve them. They take advantage of me, and I'm okay with that, because they're in my life and that's all I ever really wanted. And  even if they scream me over, I'll still be there for them. Because that's me, that's who I am. Once I get attached to someone, they capture my heart and they will always have a place there. And that is why it's so hard for me to let this person go.

I don't have much to say...

Yeah.. Sooo. I don't really have all that much to say.. Life is pretty much the same old thing.. boo!

Today is one of those days where I wish I was in Indiana... I don't like being SO far away from my friends. my people. Sigh.

Next weekend I get to hang out with the most precious 6 year old boy. ever.  I get to be called 'B' again.. oh thats music to my ears ;) I get to be the coolest person ever for 3 days. i can't wait!! =)  ANND i get to help throw a baby shower ANNND a wedding shower.. for two different.. very awesome and amaazing cousins :) Yah buddy!!

Has anyone else noticed that when you are waiting for something to come in the mail. its never comes when you think it will (or should) its been 2 weeks.. and i can't stand the wait.. grr :)

okay, well i told you i didn't have much to say.. ha. later!

A total GOD STORY!!

So, I'm here to share with you.. a Total God Story.. God gets ALL the glory for this!!

So, Sunday.. at Church My grandpa passed out in church, during the sermon.. Thankfully it was on a sunday when My aunt was there with him.. (and thankfully his Dr. Just happens to go to the same church.. and the church has an emergency response team (nurses. etc) ) there) The lady sitting behind my aunt leaned forward and said "what can I do" My aunts response... "Get Dr. Laura"  Before  everyone could get over there.. He had stopped breathing... Laura then Asked "who knows CPR?" A guy said "I DO" and they went to work.. it took about a minute but they got him back :) God Saved a life!! =)  for a about a minute we lost my grandpa.. But God.. being the truly AWESOME God he has.. Brought him back and gave him back to us.. for how long.. no-one knows.. But We will enjoy and treasure every moment we have left with the incredible man of God! Thanks God for saving a life!! =)  One of the songs that keeps going through my head everytime I think about this is "How Great Tho Art"  We serve an AMAAZING God.. I'm still in awe!!! :)
All the right people were in the right place.. at the right time.. I also had people texting/ calling me to let me know they were praying.. not even minutes after i found out.. Thanks!! =)

Change...

Change can be one of the most scary things...ever.. It can also be, happy or sad...
This Christmas brought soo many changes it made my head, spin... and they weren't the happy kind of change.. it was more the sad.. i hate this feeling kind of change... It started the Friday before Christmas... when we took my Grandpa to the Doctor, and he got sent to the ER.. where they confirmed, he was having...a heart attack :( Saturday.. (Christmas eve) he was STILL in the hospital... :( Christmas was looking more and more. sad.... Christmas morning.. we got the call.. HE CAN COME HOME!!! we dropped everything.. and picked him up at the hospital and brought him HOME!!! =) YAY!!!- he was tired... but beyond happy to be HOME FOR CHRISTMAS!!!- a couple times throught the weekend he sad... I've asked the Lord to just let me live till Jan. 27th.. when Evelyn died :( How sweet. but yet SO depressing.. Then the other "big' change was... not having TONS of cousins/aunts/uncles here.. not sitting around the table playing... Picture Telephone.. not play Dirty Uno... not having TONS of people sitting around one table eatting dinners.. no family football time... 3 cousins here.. thats it. that's all.. no week long cousin time..more like 2 days. dumb.
Sometimes its the the things you expect to ALWAYS be the same.. the stuff that makes you feel comfortable.. that thing you love more then Christmas day.. that changes, and when it does change it hurts alot... I guess all my life I took for granted that.. i'll always have tons of cousins around at Christmas... and now.. its not so.. and I hate it.. I hate that feeling. I miss Cousin game time.. go bowling.. The "Fights' Timothy and Brian always seemed to have.. Sitting around the living room singing Christmas songs.  going to movies. My cousins/aunts/uncles are the greatest people I know.. and i hope/pray more then ANYTHING else.. we will have more AWESOME TONS OF PEOPLE filled weeks.. it has to happen again.. i can't stand the thought of us not all being together again.. at the same time.. Grandma woulnd't like that.. and that's the thing. if she was still alive.. I KNOW people wouldn't let this slipping away happen.. STOP CHANGING!!!!!!!!!!!

December...

Its here..... DECEMBER!! =) its always one of my favorite times of the year, the lights, the music. the Christmas tree.. the cookies/peanut butterballs/ coconut bars. all the yummy Christmas treats.. BUT my favorite part of the whole season has always been.. right after Christmas.. having my WHOLE family (ie: cousins/aunts/uncles/grandparents) together... sitting around the living room singing Christmas songs.... that hardly happens anymore ;( I guess because everyone is growing up.. and such.. i just wish it could happen ONE MORE TIMEE!!- i like the 'family time' better then Christmas day ;) I realize how very blessed I am.. I Have the greatest cousins. EVER!!!-  And I thank My grandma.. for always wanting us Cousins to be close.. her wish came true ;) I just wish she was here to see it.. Its been 6 years.. and I still miss her.. like crazy.. i don't think that hurt will ever fully heal.

AH AH AH!!- 4 days.. until.. INDIANA!! I cannot WAIT to see my bestest most awesome friends... EVER!! ;) Its gonna be SO SO great!! ;)